**The sound of a dark and calamitous saloon piano plays in
the background** A woman is tied to the railroad tracks in an old silent movie
with a nefarious villain rubbing his hands gleefully at his handiwork. She is
helpless and frantic. When along comes the hero, her hero, who rushes in, unties
her just before the train arrives. He rescues her and puts an end to the
villain’s evil plot…. BAM, the blueprint for the Damsel in Distress is born.
Ok. I get it. I don’t like it, but I get it.
If it is an inherent female trait, it skipped me. If it is learned or
taught behavior, I failed the class. I totally understand the concept. I
completely, if albeit grudgingly, acquiesce to the fact that the concept
exists. I just can’t manage to pull it off. I know these distressed damsels
exist. I have met one or two. It is with curiosity and sometimes a twinge of
jealousy that I watch them operate. But it’s not for me. Honestly I am proud to say that most of the
amazing single women I know today it also does not work for them.
The theme is repeated over and over again in relationship
books and talk shows. (I admit I was an avid watcher of Dr Phil until I stopped
buying cable.) Guys like to feel needed. They need to know they have
contributed something worthwhile. Performed a service. Helped. Fixed something,
anything. It is hard wired into their DNA. I applaud that DNA. Trust me, I am
not a feminist. I have no real problem (I can already hear the groans starting)
with traditional gender roles. I will cook supper if you cut the grass. The problem
I have is ASKING you to cut the grass.
I am not a tomboy, but I have done stuff. Non-girly stuff. I
had a rifle and went hunting with my dad. I drove a tractor and helped on our
small farm. My first paying job at age 13 was putting in tobacco. If you don’t
know what that means, well you just wouldn’t understand. If you DO know what it
means, then you DO understand. The first vehicle I bought was a 4-Wheel Drive
Toyota Truck. (Ok, looking back, maybe I was somewhat of a tomboy.) But I never
considered myself to be one. I was just a country girl. But a girl none the less; with the same sappy,
dreamy ideas that most girls have. I had a life size poster of Scott Baio on my
wall….yes I did. And the stair steps of my adolescence were meant to lead to
college, a career, a husband. With that husband, create a partnership. My
parents had a partnership. In the early years of their marriage they owned a
restaurant, a gas station, a boarding house. (They did all that cool
interesting stuff before I was born.) They worked together, united. When my
father went to work at the shipyard, my mother went back to school to get her cosmetologist
license. My father turned our garage into a beauty shop. Teamwork. After
retirement and the move back to NC, they both worked together to tend a small farm
and keep an immaculate yard, flower beds and fruit orchard. They didn’t have a
chore chart. They didn’t flip a coin. They just did what had to be done. Worked
in conjunction with each other. So it is their fault that I went into adulthood
thinking that was the design for a healthy marriage/partnership.
I kept those ideas and thoughts and beliefs….right until the
age of 28, when through no fault of my own (Well, that’s not a true statement. I
do own some fault); I became a divorced single mother with two daughters.
What do most single mothers do? EVERYTHING! (Now for all the
single dads out there, please do not get up in arms. I very much applaud you
for also doing EVERYTHING. However for the purpose of this particular train of
thought, I am sticking with the female side.)
Financial decisions, discipline decisions, car decisions, school
decisions, vacation decisions…. The list is endless. Skinned knees. Science
projects. Sibling brawls in the kitchen (and bedroom and front yard). First
heartbreak. My obvious point is that being a single mom creates a situation
where you have to be in charge. Become strong in areas that you really didn’t
want to be strong in. When you are accustomed to those things it is then difficult to turn the tide. We can’t go from being an independent,
self-sufficient woman and then fall to fainting on cue. Do we feel like
fainting? Yeah. Sometimes we do. Or at least I know I did. I had an amazing
support system with my parents, couldn’t have done it without them. But some
nights after dinner, homework, and all the little problems are handled, you
lock yourself in the bathroom, turn on the shower and cry. And pray. And wonder
if there will ever come a time when you will not feel broken, inadequate and
exhausted.
Ok, I know that’s a downer. Where’s the happy blog? Who is
in charge today?? I just had to write all those dismal words to point out that
we as single women and moms DO have distress. But we don’t LIVE in distress. We
live in HOPE and COURAGE and LOVE. And when we meet a guy, those are the attributes
we display. We don’t want you to feel sorry for us. We are proud of ourselves.
So we can plan dinner, but would LOVE if you did it first. We can take the car
to have the oil changed or tires rotated, but it would melt our heart if you
offered to handle it. We can pay a plumber to unclog the toilet, but….well
maybe we should just pay the plumber. My point is, just because we have risen
to the occasion and CAN handle life, doesn’t mean we would not relish the
chance to sit back, let go of the reins and let someone else do it from time to
time. But some of us (me) just have trouble asking for help.
So for the men who are looking to be needed, resourceful,
handy, generous in time and affection, please by all means DON’T LET US STOP
YOU! We do not mean to get in our own way. Open the doors, bring the flowers,
pick up the milk, make the reservation. Untie us from the railroad tracks.
Hope Out